Tuesday, September 17, 2013

Emotional Wreck

When I see Dr. Frech 2 weeks later, I am an emotional wreck. I hate crying in front of people but at this point I don’t know what else to do or how else to hold it together. You try to stay strong but each test that comes back normal tears me down. Each day I seem sicker and sicker and really have mostly stopped eating at this point. At my appointment, we go over all the tests. He brings up to topic of this may just be IBS. I have done my homework and I don’t think I have IBS. Yes, this condition does explain some of my symptoms but not all of them. I am positive that I do not have IBS and I try to relay this feeling to him. He listens, or at least humors me at this point.

He starts looking for some scope results and I tell him the last time I had a scope done was several years ago and that he has never done one on me. He looks confused. He thought he had done one at the same time he did the colonscopy. He very reluctantly decides to order an EGD (scope) and this will be the last test that is ordered.

I cry for the 45 minute drive home, playing the what-if game in my head.



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