Happy National Doctors Day!!

Today is National Doctors Day. In honor of this, I wanted to give an update of how things are going as well as a shout out to my Doctors.

Things are going just OK. Not as well as I would like them to be going but it is what it is. I have had the feeding tube out for 2 weeks and have lost 8 pounds. I however have not passed out once since the feeding tube was taken out, so that’s a bonus! I am also having a harder time eating again. My stomach feels like it is shrinking and I am eating less and less. I try to eat at least once an hour so I can get most of my calories in, but this is hard since I feel full all the time. Everything just sits in my stomach and I am so nauseated all day long. I have grown such a hatred for food! The eating aspect of all of this is unfortunately moving backwards, not forwards. I feel weaker and weaker each day and am so exhausted. If I sit somewhere in the same position for too long, I fall asleep. All of my vitamin numbers look OK so I don’t know where this level of exhaustion is coming from. The Linzess that Dr. Frech has me on seems to be doing the job but it is not helping the pain in my colon on my left side. The pain in my right side seems to be creeping back but seems different this time and is centered more in my back and radiates into in between my shoulder blades. I think the only positive thing that has happened in the last 2 weeks is the tube is gone and I haven’t passed out! I see Dr. Rasmussen in 2 more weeks and Dr. Frech in May. If things don’t start taking a turn, we may have to change the game plan.

Since it is National Doctors Day, I had to give a shout out to both of my amazing Doctors! Wow. Where do I begin and how do I explain it in words? I have never met two Doctors that show their patients as much compassion as mine have given to me (and I have seen a Dr. or two in my day). Dr. Rasmussen and Dr. Frech are 2 of the most kind and caring individuals I have had the pleasure of coming into contact with. To them, I am not a number. I am a human being with a real complicated problem. I can’t even begin to count how many times I have had a breakdown in front of these guys and they sit and so patiently listen to me and offer whatever comfort they can. So many times, we forget the simple power that can be found in human touch. Whether that is a tissue box, a shoulder to lean on, or a simple hug they willingly offer it. I am sure that I would be dead at this point if it weren't for the 2 of them. Not only did both of them take on my rare extreme case, but both of them believed that I was truly sick. They listen to me and are also honest with me, which is rare to find in a Doctor. I owe both of them so much and don’t even know how I can begin to repay them! So here is to the best 2 Doctors that I think exist in the state of Utah, Dr. Richard Rasmussen and Dr. Edward Frech!

So for now, I have stopped trying to find or see a reason to why this has happened or why I have had to suffer through this. I just have to believe that there is a reason and hopefully find comfort in that. I continue to lean on those that lend their strength to me because mine is running low. I just have to remember that each day is a new day.