We Have A Date...

We have a date.

I met with Dr. Rasmussen for my pre-op appointment this week and we have surgery scheduled for February 2^nd. I was actually looking forward to having this surgery for the simple reason that I would be able to have my feeding tube taken out. Little did I know that this is not going to be the case.

We went over all the usual pre-op stuff. Height, weight, blood pressure, temperature, medication list, allergies, and previous surgeries were reviewed. The scheduled plan is to do a laparoscopic lysis of adhesions and to take down the small bowel that remained attached to the abdominal wall from the previous surgery. There is a possibility that the surgery will have to be an open procedure instead of a laparoscopic procedure. There is also the possibility that the intestine will still have a hole in it from where the feeding tube was inserted in from last year. Hopefully neither one of these scenarios will take place, but knowing my luck lately it’s a possibility. There is also all the other standard surgery risk involved and the possibility that this surgery won’t relieve any of my symptoms. However, I am hoping for even a little relief. I am staying in the hospital at least one night and that may change depending on how things go.

The other super sucky piece of information is that Dr. Rasmussen will NOT remove the nasal feeding tube! When I asked him about it and he said no, I really thought he was joking. Not funny! He says that he wants to keep the feeding tube in place and use it after surgery. There will be so much trauma from the surgery and I already don’t have a good track record with eating post operatively that he thinks it will be wise to keep it in and use it. We will continue using it to stabilize my weight and then slowly decrease the feeds until I am no longer in need of it. I totally get why he wants to keep it in and he is the Dr. but I really really really REALLY wanted it taken out. I am so bummed!! I am trying to remain positive but each day that goes by, I freak out a little more and now since the tube is not being removed I am not looking forward to any of this at all!! Holy crap, here we go!

This perfectly sums me up right now, in this very moment!!